What Is An Indigo Child?

I am.

This is a song that I love and really relate to.

So what is a an Indigo? I am. I have known this, for many years as Nancy told me.

I knew that is why I struggled with just being happy. I had no idea to why I reacted differently or saw things differently until I decided to research it to be able to help other Indigo’s and to teach Indigo’s.
Now I do, and it makes perfect sense for the first time in my life.

What are we?

We are big square peg’s that everyone is intent on pushing into little round holes.
We hurt. We hurt like hell at the silliest of things. We just see things different to you normal folk out there. We crave to be just that, normal. To fit in and see people as you do.
 

Myself

I never fitted in at school, don’t get me wrong I had friends but I never actually felt as though they really liked me. I don’t actually feel like anyone actually likes me. Love me yes, but liking someone is a whole new ball game.

I can remember being four years old. I remember my age as I went to school then, and I changed school at five. I know the school I was at and I can picture it easily. If I was four my little brother was only one. My mom had come to collect me from school and it was pouring of rain. I mean the type of stair rod rain. My little brother was in his pushchair screaming the place down. I was trying to show my mom a painting I had done that day at school and she asked me to wait, as we needed to get home.

I kept on and on for her to see. She lost her temper a little, as all moms do under stress. Poor thing had me winging, my brother screaming the place down and she was soaked to the skin. Well you know what I did? Terrible really, but I ripped it in half. Did I get a slapped leg, oh yes. I can remember that like it was yesterday, but I bet my mom can’t.

I told you that to make a point. It is that I, or all Indigo’s carry hurt with them. I, or they remember everything. To the outside world we look the same and act the same. The mask is good but we don’t react the same, we don’t feel the same. We don’t look at any situation as you do.

I have been upset many times over the years and had friend’s say you need to step back and see.

Do you have any idea how frustrating that is when you are like me? We do that is the problem. It is not us that do not see; it is you.

All indigos see the whole scheme of things. The whole picture it is you that is blind. You see a situation; we see that and the events that follow. So I do get a bit, how dare you speak to me like that, and I do refrain from saying you Muppet!

While researching I found many things that made me sit back in disbelief. Not only for legal reason do I rewrite some of this but also as my motto is keeping it simply
 

Are You an Adult Indigo?

Yes, You can be an adult Indigo. They did not just start coming now, the numbers of us have just been increasing more and more till there are so many we finally can not be ignored.

We will be seen as the normal in the end, I do believe that, if not why are there so many of us out here.
 
Even if most of them are still hiding and very afraid and lonely. I will help any Indigo as much as I possibly can, weather I am any good at it I think you would need to ask my friends the answer to that. But I do try and I wish I had had an Indigo elder around me, and then I wouldn’t have ever felt so odd and alone.
 
Are intelligent, but may not have had top grades. They never did great in school but can talk with you on most subjects and have a good logical mind. We are all smart cookies really; just hate anyone telling us to conform.

We are very creative and like to have a good try at making things. From, baking cakes to painting great pictures. I love doing both, though my hands do stop me now. I also love to write, but this is probably the first time I have ever admitted it. I have written for years and just hidden it.

We always need to no why. Not just how but why, especially if we are being asked to do something. Can you please is simply not good enough, can you please because, and we will do it every time. Even if we are ill, no good the doctor telling us what is wrong, we want to no why.

We didn’t like school it was far too boring and repetitive. In fact more than didn’t like it, we loathed it. We never felt we fitted in; we had or rather have little respect for teachers or any sign of authority. That doesn’t make us mad that makes us a little, if you want my respect you have to earn it like everyone else. Your title doesn’t get it you.

We played up in school, in that we refused to do homework and rejected authority of teachers, or we seriously wanted to rebel but wasn’t quite brave enough.

We may have felt depressed from a young age, and had a total feeling of helplessness. These can and probably did range from a feeling of total despair to self-loathing.

Suicidal feelings while still in school are not uncommon in Indigo children or Indigo Adults. I have never done this, but please don’t think it has never entered my head, because it has, ask me to explain and I cannot.

We have difficulties in office jobs or any service type job. As we can’t stand the authority

We much prefer to be in charge, to be leader or managers. If we can’t have this we would rather work alone.

We have deep empathy for others. Be it emotional or physically. It actually worries us how others feel.

We may be over emotionally sensitive, including crying at the drop of a hat (no shielding) or it can be the opposite and show no expression of emotion (full shielding).

I personally do both; I can be in floods for days or wake one morning and not wish to speak to a soul. I can be really off putting and I know that. If anyone has a method to control this please share.

We tend to suffer from great rage at the world and bad situations. We will keep things calm for as long as we can, but if someone goes too far, well we can’t hide it can I say.

We do not tolerate fools gladly at all.

Anyone whom presumes they are right all the time, anyone whom cannot see the wood for the trees, they drive us mad, completely insane. That does not mean we have to be right, it simply means we believe everyone has their own perspective on things and is entitled to be heard. Talking over us or at us will get you no where as we simply block and then we wouldn’t know if you were singing us nursery rhymes.

We struggle with systems we consider broken or ineffective i.e. educational, medical, and legal.

We feel alienated from everything. Like our voice, our opinions don’t count, ever. That is, if we actually think for a change they were even heard.

Frustration with or rejection of the traditional dream - 9-5 career, marriage, 2.5 children, house with white picket fence, and roses around the doorway etc.

We feel a burning desire to do something to change and improve. We have trouble finding our path. Our way in the world. We constantly try to make things better for everyone, but in this we actually help other forget us.

Have psychic or spiritual interest fairly young - in or before teen years. Teen years would of given me ten years off.

Had few if any Indigo role models.

Have strong intuition.

A lot of male Indigos are diagnosed with ADHA that they do not have. Craig was one of them.

We have most likely had psychic experiences, such as premonitions, seeing angels or ghosts, out of body experiences, hearing voices all from a very young age.

We may be electrically sensitive such as watches not working and street lights going out as you walk under them, electrical equipment going wacky and lights blowing out. I couldn’t tell you how many watches, microwave, vacuums, kettles and the favourite in my house in irons; I have had in the last five years it is getting ridiculous.

I can have my change off of people in shops and give them a shock.

When I undress at night it is like my own little sparkler show.

Car doors I shut with my coat, bag anything so as I don’t actually have to touch it.

We are aware of other dimensions and parallel realities. Or is it that we are not ignorant enough to believe we are the only form of existence in this universe.

We may reject sexuality in boredom or with intention of achieving higher spiritual connection. Sex is good and fun, but we want to feel a connection, a real connection. We want to breathe souls.

If we find balance we may become very strong, healthy, happy individuals. I pray that all Indigos do.

If we don’t we can become very withdrawn and suffer from deep depression that know one understands as there is no visible reason for it.

But please remember even if there is no reason you see, it does not mean it isn’t there.

I wish I could sit here right now and tell you I cannot associate with any of these feelings. But I do, every one of them to one extent or another.

Even today I have had a really bad Indigo day. Through what you may see as silly reasons. But to me they rip my very insides out.

Today I don’t fit anywhere, I don’t mean anything and I will again always come second or third or even fourth.

It is as if I have a longing, a need to be loved just for me, and no one can love me enough. I think this is why I am so crap at marriage.

I pick men that are cool and a bit risky. Then when they show little or no emotion I cry myself to sleep at night.

Well you know what? No more. Love me for me or bugger off.

I miss my Nan today. She would of just held my hand.

Today, for one day only, it is all just a burden again.

Being indigo is a very lonely place. I know two Indigos, one is Tan and the other is Craig. Craig stayed with me for a while.

There are two reasons for this.

One being that he had to find work, as where he moved from there was none.

The other is as he was a lost Indigo. And he needed help and guidance to see he isn’t alone in all that comes with the title Indigo. Craig is a friend’s son. His mom is a very gifted lady but she isn’t Indigo.

Just like the list above says he was diagnosed with ADHA at an early age. One of the first time’s I met Craig he had his photo taken with his mom. Instantly I saw something in his eyes. Something that to me, was very familiar.

See I still have days like this, a lot more than people realise. And I hate them. I feel like there really isn’t much point. And everyone just walks away and leaves me to it. But I do know that is as I hide it mostly. I told you at the beginning of this book, I told you that no one wears a mask like an Indigo.

Many people when I was younger and in my teens would say oh my god, Lorraine cheer up or put a smile on it. What they didn’t know was that on those days I had totally shielded I had shut down all together as it was the only way I could deal with it.

I must have appeared to be the stropiest teen on the planet and a real pain to my parents.

Yet on a good day my humour would shine I would be perfectly fine. These were the days when I didn’t get too much company.

I am so glad I remembered all those years how to click or I am certain I wouldn’t be sat here now writing this. I would have been committed many years ago.

It is hard being like me and I will not lie to anyone but I can say that if anyone needs to learn how to be able to be free or calm if they need to I will help anyone if I can.

I am doing this on a regular basis now anyway. Big thing to take on as my friends keep telling me, but I can’t just sit here while there are people thinking they have completely lost their minds.
Some have and I don’t dispute it, but as I am gifted I do know the difference.
So what if you are Mum and Dad to an Indigo child, how do you know?

The Indigo Children

For some years now Children have been born with the ability to connect. These children are here to change our consciousness and the energy of the planet as we know it.

Sounds freaky, doesn’t it? Well its isn’t, these kid’s are special and are here to help us to move the planet along a road of awareness. We are trying with all our might to simply make people more aware.

Indigo children have been coming to us for over forty years and most are adults. They show signs of psychic awareness clairvoyance, clairsentience, clair cognizance and clairaudience. Meaning very sensitive to energies and seeing into the unknown.

'Ghosts', inter-dimensional communications, paranormal activity, Sightings, "UFO-Abduction', Lucid Dreaming, the whole nine yards.

These kids are often misunderstood and are seen to have abnormal behaviours. And they haven’t. They are merely very afraid and very lonely.

They simply see life as a bigger picture and easily get bored with it. Most of these children and have psychic abilities as well as other things that have yet to be discovered.

These are the identified Indigo Children. Indigos can display some or all of these qualities. They are very good at using all five senses, to a higher level to what you can. Again this is most often misunderstood and are prescribed calming, hormonal drugs (which are not needed) Yes they do need extra care and attention, simply because they see everything as a whole compared to most of us.

So what you read here may open your eyes or it may simply tell you what you already know. They should not be misjudged and cast aside. Just because they show a greater understanding and sensitivity to what you cannot see yourselves.

That just isn’t fare, and I feel and the end of the day if your little one’s tell you things they should have no knowledge of, well so what. Don’t be afraid. Be proud as you have a special child.
Does that all sound a bit scary to you? It did to me when I read it. The more I read it the more I got it. My problem now is that I want to keep this all as simply as possible for you. But when I write of such things is isn’t so easy. I am trying really hard and I pray you get it. I think I need to do a web page before I have this printed then if you at all don’t get it whether you be Indigo or parent to and Indigo you can pop along and I will try to answer any questions you should ask.
 

The Unhappy Indigo

If Indigos are given the opportunity to express who they are, if they are loved and respected, they can become highly sensitive, loving and gifted people. If they are not, they tend to become self-destructive and loners.

Lot’s become drug abusers, have eating disorders and dysfunctional behaviour among Indigos is an indicator that the way we live is dysfunctional.

Please, never ever tell them they are not good enough. Not at anything ever. They will remember for all time and always carry it with them. You may have forgotten in a week, I doubt they will of forgotten in five years, if they ever do at all.

Indigos are born with a sense of "mission". We know we have something to do on this planet. We just never know what until we are faced with it.

Yet, from the minute we arrive here on this earth, we are bombarded with negative messages that affect our self-worth. From the time we begin to walk, there is a constant "don't do this/don't do that", to us these messages say, "you are stupid".

If an Indigo is made to feel worthless and not good enough, they tend to feel that way for our entire lives unless we are discovered or rescued. We have failed with our mission, and this makes us depressed, angry, and self-destructive. May I add I was rescued from myself.

So please, if you are a parent or care for an Indigo, make sure you are voicing their value and worth. Respect them for who they are, no matter how different they are to you. Children are not meant to be clones of their parents, or to carry the wishes and dreams of the parent. Allow them to be who they are, and they will bloom into wonderful adults.
I talk of keeping it simple but if I tell the truth I can only make it as simple as I can, I have no guarantees that I can make you as an individual see what or where I am coming from.